That guy really is happy to make me wait for nothing, always. And I'm getting tired of it. I'm almost at my limits and then I'll cut it off, really. I don't deserve this. I guess I should stop expecting for more and I'll be fine.
Bigbang's Alive Tour concert in Manila is coming, it's on October 24! Whaaa! That, I could say, is one of my frustrations in my life. It's just that they are my idols and when I heard that they're going to have a concert here in the Philippines, I get so excited and decided to save up a lot of money for that but... but.. but.. I wasn't able to do that and no one can give me the amount of money to buy a ticket. I feel so down, I will not get to see Bigbang especially TOP Oppa!
I will never be able to see this handsome/hot/adorable TOP in person. Whaaaa! Sorry Oppa. :'(
I will never be able to see them perform on stage. I will never be able to see them!
So now, I'm actually imagining my VIP friends in Bigbang's concert and here I am...
JUST RIPS OUT MY HEART.
It's funny how seeing/talking/laughing/joking around with him makes my day even if it's just an hour or two. I love it when we can act like we're bestfriends, acting like idiots, laugh at each others faces, making fun of each other, etc. We feel so comfortable with each other and that's what I love the most but we also know when to be serious in a situation. Nothing, I'm just happy. That's all. :)
Today is our 4th month together. This day is supposed to be special and happy but it turned out to be another stressful day for me. He made me wait for him for many hours again just because he overslept! And that was not the first time he did that. That's just unfair so I broke up with him. I thought it was over between us but then I saw him crying while I'm talking to him and I'm like, 'whoa' can't believe he's crying. I realized that I might be wrong for giving up on us. That makes me wanna fight for him and hold on to things even more. Today is quite stressful but still not that stressful anymore 'coz all things that had happened are worth it. ♥
Every time I'm alone, I'm over thinking things, my mind creates the worst situations that can happen. That's what I hate the most! I hate over thinking though I can't stop it. I really just need someone to talk to or hang out with someone. Mind if we talk? 
Anyone?
Anyone?
Finally, we had this time to bond together, again. Really had fun with her, we talked a lot about things and all . Can't believe our bond don't change at all, I mean, we're still that close and no awkwardness between the two of us and that's what I love about our relationship. I miss those times when we are not that busy and we could talk and bond whenever we want to. Bring me back high school !
