Sunday, November 9, 2014

Just a not-so-very late update

Sunday, November 9, 2014
It's been a long long journey since then.. 

I've never imagined myself being this motivated about my career, my future. First, I didn't thought about taking the board exam. I didn't even thought about seriously reviewing for the board exams for psychometrician. It's not my priority. But it's true that "There are good things we pursue and there are the ones that just float our way.". Yes, I'm that kind of a person that's just going with what's life bring me but this time I've finally made up my mind that I want to pursue something. I didn't pursue anything but being fortunately enough, I happen to be one of the 39.29% of those who passed the 2014 Psychometrician Licensure Exam. I'm feeling very overwhelmed, proud and ludicrously happy about everything right now, it just seemed perfect or perhaps not coz I know that there still a lot of obstacles for me to face but this time around, I sure will never give up on anything..


Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Psychology 101: Madonna- whore complex

Wednesday, April 23, 2014
The Madonna- whore complex is the condition where a man cannot have a sexual desire for the woman he loves (the Madonna) but is sexually attracted to degraded women (whore). A man with this complex may develop love to a specific woman but is unable to be sexually attracted to that woman, whereas he can only satisfy his sexual desires to a promiscuous woman he can't love. In short term this is "love without sex and sex without love".

According to Freud, what causes the complex is rooting from oedipus complex (from Phallic stage), in which the boy showing much affection to his mother. As a man, he will court and love a woman who he sees as similar to his mother but he could not develop a sense of sensuality to her because in his unconscious, it would be incest.

As oppose to Freud's theory, psychoanalyst Richard Tuch explain that the complex is cause not by oedipal-based concept, he says that it is primarily because of a man's hatred to women. When a child is raised by a cold and distant mother, he may develop a sense that he would eventually revenge the mother by being in a sexual relationship to a woman whom he sees similar to his mother but whom he cannot love.

I really think that this complex still applies to and any man who do not grew up normally with proper parent care and all. How about you? What do you think is the real cause of this complex? Do you know someone who suffers from this condition?

Monday, March 24, 2014


Monday, March 24, 2014
After all those series of unfortunate events in terms of my relationship with Nath, finally, everything is setting up to it's pieces. March 22, 2014, our first anniversary, is quickly added to my 'one of the most happiest and unforgettable days of my life so far' list. It is something I can't barely believe because it's just soo good to be true. To think that the past few days before that date, we nearly broke up and then there's this tampo blues and extreme bangayan just because.. I never thought that we'll gon be okay again, I thought we're falling apart but yeah, things happen. I know those are all just obstacles that we have to overcome in this relationship in able for us to grow and be stronger. And I'm so thankful that somehow, we were getting stronger and stronger than before..
We decided to celebrate our day in Star City. That was hella fun and something unforgettable. Thinking that I'm in this amusement park with my one and only that traveled for four hours just to see me, I'm so lucky! ♥

We bought a ride-all-you-can ticket + a ticket to Snow World which costs him PHP 1,020.00. We only ride Surf Dance, Star Frisbee and The Giant Star Wheel. We should've ride the Star Flyer after but he resist because he felt dizzy and feeling like vomiting right after we ride the Star Frisbee. hahahaha. 

Star City's extreme ride, Star Frisbee. 

Selfie @ the Giant Star Wheel (If you notice, he looked like he just forced a smile in this photo, nalululula lang po hahahahaahaha!)
@ Snow World 

 He stayed here in Manila for only 2 days and 1 night. Up until now, I still can't get over, I'm too overwhelmed with the happiness I felt being with him. The day when he's leaving Manila to go back to Olongapo, I felt really sad and there's this feeling I can't describe, I want to be with him pa. Super bitin! Looking forward to our next anniv. and the next and the next...

Friday, February 7, 2014

Workin' on my thesis

Friday, February 7, 2014
              This is the time of the year when I have a shitload things to do that I don't know what to put first anymore, it's crazy! Work and study (plus lovelife..joke hehe!) is so hard to concur but still I know I can do this and I have to f*ckng do this, no time for negative thoughts for now and I know it will all be worth it.

            Okay, enough of the intros, I'm here to talk about my thesis in progress. It's all about fear, knowing your unconscious fears, childhood fears, conquering your fears, etc. We all have fears and it's normal, I believe without having fears, people will not live a normal life. Do you guys agree with that? hmmm.. Without fear, a man can kill whenever he wants, we'd be jumping off a high building, we can do whatever we want but we won't survive for long with that. I think having fears is not innate to all of us and there are studies in the past that fear is created in all aspects, that includes our environment, culture, childhood experiences.

          Talking about creating fear, there is the famous psychology experiment called "The Little Albert Experiment" conducted by behaviorist John B. Watson and his student, Rosalie Raynor. The experiment features a baby which they experimented with classical conditioning, although it is one of the famous experiments in the history of psychology, the experiment is criticized in several reasons. First, the process and design is not carefully constructed because Watson and Raynor only rely on their own opinions and secondly, it is just unethical.

      Fears are also studied before in the course of human evolution which says that people who feared the right things survived to pass on their genes. The trait of fear and the response to all the dangers around as is truly beneficial to our race. However, there are several cases that fear can be a hindrance to someones life. It is when fear became extreme that it affect one's daily activities and in this cases, one should consult professional help. But then, it is also very important to know and learn how to overcome your own fears in able to live a normal and happy life.

           I've come up to a simple survey questionnaires (refer to the link below) for my research and it covers questions related on what are the possible causes, effects and ways how to overcome fears. If you have something to share about this topic, please let me know. It will be very much appreciated. :-)

Thank you for reading.

Fear is nothing more than an obstacle that stands in the way of progress. In overcoming our fears we can move forward stronger and wiser within ourselves. 

Monday, February 3, 2014

To My Big Man

Monday, February 3, 2014
Yesterday, it's been hell for me. You said things that totally shocked the hell out of me, it hurts deep into my soul, literally. I know it's all my fault 'coz I can't get things done, I'm impossible and petulant and possessive and a disgrace to you. Inspite of all that, fights over smallest things, physically hurting you and all our differences, you still stayed and do your best to be with me for the past 10 months but I pushed you to your limit. I honestly don't know what to think and do anymore, well, I guess my past bad experiences made me like this. I'm truly deeply sorry for all that I've done but for you and me, for us. All I could think to do is that I'm willing to change, yeah, I know you heard this a lot, my false promises! but this time around it's gon' be real and true.

I've come to realize and feel real grief since those hours thinking I might not see you and talk to you ever again after all that happened. I realized it's time for me to low down my pride for the one I really love who never gave up on me on my worst attitude. Ugh! I hate drama but damn! I'm so damned and it's my freaking fault and I'm goin' crazy if I keep this to myself.

Glad I'm still lucky that you still accepted me after all, and sure this time I'll make things right baby. I said before we parted after our broke up yesterday that breaking up is just okay with me because I saw it coming and I believe that 'people just come and go', but truth is, it's not, at that moment I want to say that 'I'm sorry and please accept me' but it's not that easy for I'm afraid you'll reject me and that'll totally break my heart into pieces and my soul might die right there and then. It's true people just come and go and I might just accept it but I want you to be the only exception to that, I can't even bear thinking about not being with you. I just cant.. I love you too much to walk away. And please don't change, but if ever your feelings for me had changed, I can promise that I'll understand and I'll do my best to make things just fine for this relationship...

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